the penultimatum

honestly not much to say. Today was our penultimate session with Joy. We got the final kinks out of our monologues and they are all honestly spectacular....(in my opinion at least).

I dont know if it is just me being me, but everytime i act, i think that i suck. Not just oh im being melodramatic, but that everthing i act as comes out suckish. This (hopefully) is not the case but whose to say its not. This actually could be just a kick in the ass saying that i really need to get into gear if i actually want to get anywhere in life. As my mom always says "What is going to seperate Alex Katz from Alex Katz from Alex Katz?" I guess you could say that where ever i am, i strive for somewhere better. What ever i do, i know that someone somewhere had done something better then that, and i just need to beat it. Its a never ending cycle that one day i hope to defeat, thus begining my Nirvana.......If you are into that stuff that is.