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On the train coming home from a 4th of july weekend in NY! Ate way to much seafood

zee final vorkshope

well, this vas zee final workshop with mr.Jim Bonne. I absolutely loved all of them. There is nothing bad i can say about that workshop or about him for that matter. I learned many things and gained a lot from these workshops. Through this workshop i have become a more open person because I now know that there is nothing to hide from. I also learned that to fully become my character i have to connect with him on an emotional level as well as a physical one. For example i have to figure out what my character wants and want that (or act as if i want it) also. My favorite part of this particular workshop was when we did scenes from plays. At first we read them directly from the page, but then we were told to put them down and use our own words to convey the scenes message, and THEN after using our own words, we created scenarios that weren't even a part of the scene but, in some convoluted way, were the scene's subtext. I found the workshop as a whole to be liberating and ultimately beneficial towards my future career as an actor.

well even though i was sick for one of the workshop days i was told to do a blog so......not entirely sure about what to say here. I was told that we did some script work on that day....so thats interesting, i can only assume that we did some more "energy work" which i find both refreshing and enjoyable. Again, not entirely sure what to say other then that pollen sucks as do allergies and that i really did want to attend that particular session after hearing the events that transgressed during it.

today this week

so tuesday was VERY productive for my group.

we:

finsihed 3/4 of our script and got nearly an entire dance number down.

not bad for a full days work

tomorrow we will finish our script and then finish and learn some more dances (and hopefully learn how to film dancing)

i am super excited to (learn how to) dance, as well as act in this movie. To put it mildly: this movie is AWESOME and will blow your mind....

more later

katzy

the photo workshop?!

zomg the mystery workshop! Mr.Rob Goldman was the leader of this one. In it we basically wrote down our secrets and took pictures of people when they are thinking about them and were in their most vulnerable states. It took me a while to find what my revealing secrets were.....i find myself to be a fairly open person without a lot of skeletons in my closet. But lo and behold i found something that wasn't exactly a secret, but not exactly something i publicize about myself. It was a ton of fun posing for a camera. When i get to pose on my own terms i find that i am a lot happier then when someone says "stand there and smile". I also leaned that a photo can reveal more about a person then just what they look like. It can reveal their personalities as well as their insecurities and other various aspects about that person that you don't normally perceive from merely looking at them.

workshop #3 whaddap

so this one was primarily focused on the energy, or as i like to call it "chi" of the group. To recap the experience, the group basically got into a circle and each individual person channeled their own respective energies through the circle. it really got me feeling emotionally connected to, as mr.bonne likes to call it, my inner child. What he said really holds true. That society pressures you to become more mature, and to really be a great actor you must be true to yourself and channel your inner child and let loose all of the feelings that you have.

big project!

For my big projet i am doin a "dansicle". Which is basically a movie, that instead of having songs, has dances to convey feelings and scenes. I am doing this project with Becky, Cassie, and Mich. this project will give me chance to actually learn how to dance........as well as act a bt and learn a different style of fiming




Today (tuesday) my group and i are going to research how to properly film dance, by viewing various dance films and reading about how to film it. Thursday my group and i will most likely still be researching how to film dance, but we will also be reaserching various dance styles, and how we can incorperate them into our plot.

today was with mr.jim bonnie

it was one of the most reliving and aweosme experiances ever. Its amazing how calming it could be to scream your lungs out and releasing raw emotions even if it does leave you with a sore throat. I was amazed at how good it felt to be able to actually let loose and belt out "no's" and "yess's" and its amazing how you are able to pull out emotions from your everyday like that atre pent up and direct them at someone doing the same. Not onlt was it fun and relieving, but in the grand scheme of things, i thihk that it actually helped my acting. It made me see that not only do i need to put the character's emotions into a piece but my own as well. I literally need to become my character in mind and body.

What i got out of that second session with Mr. jim bonnie was that an line can be said in many different ways. It was really all about the subtext of a line that really gives it its meaning.For example the like "you have such pretty eyes" can be said angrily, gleefully, sadly, or fearfully. It really doesnt matter how you say it al long as your point gets put across and the character that you are trying to portray is protrayed correctly. If you say that line with fear, the subtext anger the subtext may be jealousy. If you say it with glee the subtext may be sincerity. If the line is said with fear, the subtext may be that the person is afraid of fejection. If the line is said with sadnessm the subtext may be that the person remembers somoene that they miss.....with lovely eyes....

my vacation in photos

pandora's box

To be frank, i did not enjoy Pandora's box. Here are the reasons why

- I am not a huge fan of scilent movies. I get extremely annoyed that i cant hear sound other then that darn piano ( alothough i do give props to the pianist for his/her improv of the score). After about thirty minutes i have this burning desire to hear something, anything, other then that piano. I also was not pleased by the fact that the movie only gave you minimal diologue. I understand why they did it- to make people not focus on what is being said but why and how it is being said- but i found it frustrating to know that people are taking but not see what they are saying. In that entrie two and a half hour movie there was probabily about 30 lines of diologue that was shown.

- Another thing that i did not like about this movie was the fact that it dragged along at some points. For example, in the act where they are on the boat, i felt that some aspects of the plot could have been cut out. For another example, i dont think that they needed to have the subplot of the man asking Lulu for the $20000. I beleve that it was both an excuse for that character to die, and an excuse to throw a reoccuring theme of the movie back into it (that money corrupts).

- All things aside however, i found Louise Brooks to be enthralling. Even though I dont find her to be the prettiest woman in the world, i think she is an amazing actress. She is the reason that i was able to keep up with what was happening in the movie and how other characters were related to the movie's plot. As we said in class, Louise only acts as herself because that is all she knows how to do. This is most likely why she is so good. In silent films it is common for characters to overexaggerate their movements and actions, so that the viewer may have a clearer understanding as to what is going on, since there is no dialogue. However, Louise did not need any of these gimmics because she portraid her emotions and actions so realistically that her audience could actually connect to what she was feeling or doing, and actually know what she was feeling/doing.

- I also enjoyed various shots in the movie, like the "down to hell" shot where they assend the stairs to the gambling parlor, or the shot where the son of the editor finds his father dying and looks up at Lulu holding the pistol next to the painting,or the scene where Lulu is on her bed and the light is shining on her face and there is a kind of divinity to her.

Im one for classics but i much rather prefer them with a soundtrack and some diologue, i guess im just not a melodramatic silent movie type of guy.

josE and the paperback hooligans

Since i have already posted my core values and ennigran test and then rethought and did them i want to just add on to what my results were:


3rd core value: Destiny and the road of your life

Im a big believer in karma and that every action has a reaction...not necessairly the butterfly effect but i guess a diluted version of it.

problems:

Time:
I'm facinated by time and thus one of my core values is destiny. What i try to figure out is wheather life is according to the "Hitchhiker's guide to the galaxy" where everything is predetermined and you trying to stop it only makes it happen, or if like abides by the "Back to the Future" rules, that you can change your destiny.

Enigram test:

after re taking the test (as honestly as i could) i got these results:

i'm an 8 and a 3 equally with an 8 wing seven

I couldnt agree more

I have the shutoutness of an 8, but also the loyalty. I find that i have a hard outter shell and find it hard to truly trust people but if i can then im as loyal as a dog.

I also have the "get shit done" mentality of a 3 (even though that darn 8 wing 7 screws me over sometimes) once i start something it is like a freight train to get it done and once its done....im not exactly one for modesty.

8wing7: its true, when i get on stage that is. I get on the stage, or in the hot seat and i cant possibly get enough of it. I feel hyperenergetic and my mind rushes at 100000 mph. but i guess that could be the 3 in there mixing with my 8/7.

enigram test and the various other funny things

i just want to start with an actual question



I generally don't like to stay at one task for very long. I get restless and want to move onto something else.



so im clicking no as i look at the bottom of the page and see that i have 12 more pages to go and think boy...i wonder whats on facebook......



so i got my results and lo and behold its a tie between a seven and an eight



its funny becasue for a silly electronic test those results were damn right

i read both the seven and eight and hell, they were just about spot on......

i am sort of a crazy excentric quick witted seven but with the loyalty and the extreme shut out ness of a eight (contradictory i know)

core values/ the dreaded artist statement

ok so since my core values/ issues arent able to be scanned...(not that anyone could have figured them out due to my cryptic handwriting and various lines drawn as connectors, i've (kindly) narrowed everything down....and made it semi -coherant...

Core Values:

Acceptance: practially everything i do and try to do is usually for acceptancce.....whether it be my own or for someone else, i have a burning desire to be accepted (and therefore liked)

Connections- Ranging from wifi to actual human connections (relationships) my life seems to revolve around connections. I find that everything i do somehow is connected to something else i do...so i guess the Celestine Prophecy applies here also. Like acceptance i live for relationships (but always seem to get in my own way from actually achieving a succuessful one(see self sabitour under issues). Also i find that wifi(cyber connections) allows me to know more....and as much as i hate to qoute any monologue that doug has ever (or will ever) utter... "the more I know the more I'll be. The less I know the less I'll be." Meaning that the more i am connected the more i gain from being connected.

3?- as we are trying to constantly find out more about ourselves, sadly so am i. I leave the third value blank under the hope that i will find out that one last bit of myself as i continue (really meaning start) to so some soul searching.

Problems-(Gosh where to start...might need a road map for this one)

1.Karma
-self sabitour (bad karma given to myself......or just me doing (or much more likely saying) something stupid)

2. finding yourself
-(acceptance?)

(3?)- (i add the question mark only because im not sure if this goes under this catagory or if i am just having a self help session with my monitor and key board)

I make people hate me before they can hate me.

its like a bomb that i voluntairily cut the red wire to (even though i know it is the green wire to stop it) before it can go off on its own.

i wanna stop there because i realize that venting towards an inanimate object may be fun but it illicits wierd stares from people from the slightly disturbed look upon my face...

(4?) (again question mark because im not sure it fits)

humor
it is the bane of my existance but also the reason that i am still sane
it is the evergoing quest to find humor in any and all situations that is the trouble
it is also my defence mechanism (humor translated into sarcasm) which i often use to keep myself from either getting emotionally connected (bomb theory) or to keep myself from being (pause for the cliche about to come) all that i can be.

ill end this crazed siloquoy with a little bit of humor becasue that is what i do best

Personality type:
A-Love yourself
B-Hate your self

i see myself as an A
or would it be a B and a half seeing as it would need to go up to an A because an A going to a B is proposterous
however i dont think that a B type rubs me so well, so i will have to go with an A minus i guess
But that gives me too much credit because as easily as i can look in a mirror and say "you are the man" i can also say that " kid...you need to loose a bit of weight" so i will have to go with a B+
But again that darn B doesnt give me enough credit but the A minus may just be too generous (becasue lets get this straight a A minus is practically a B+ anyways) But that A- is better then that darn B+....oh wait....how bout i create a C + that way i can be a B type with the "C" but the plus is for the A type in me.....but again that C doesnt have the same ring as an A and ill tell you i think that i deserve an A.....but not really.....i guess.................................
wrap your head around that

Newyears resolutions (cliche i know) ( and if you must burst my bubble do so nicely)

1. Taylor Lautner Abs...for the ladies....
2. Good grades (but that's a given)
3. Job would be nice ( lifeguarding pays well....)
4. be a general better person.... even i dont know what it entails but i guess it sounds protentious enough to be on here
5. Have more fun---im the steryotypical nerd when it comes to going out and having fun....and that really needs to change
6. stop cursing--its gonna get me in trouble one day
7. Dont get in my own way
8. Taylor lautner abs (...........its for the ladies)
9. Stand out
10. make EVERYONE proud
11. take time for myself
12. get done with this list!!!!!!!

and good luck to everyone else..........