stuffed like a bird.....which i ate

Hey everyone, hope you guys had an awesome turkey day/weekend. Right now im not sure what exactly to say due to the combination of overindulgence and holy jolly cheer. I know thanksgiving is supposed to be a time of thanks and whatnot so first im gonna say something cliche and hopefully then get to someting that you want to read......im thankful for my family/friends/i pod/unfaling sense of humor. Now that, that is out of the way, i want to try and delve into what thanksgiving is all about. Thanksgiving is time where families get together to talk about the most important things....like the football scores and hannukah. That's all thanksgiving seems to come down to in present day, overindulging ourselves in a large bird and discussing presents while rooting for our favorite teams. Not that this is a bad thing, but it seems like thanksgiving has really lost its meaning with all of the stupid modern gimmics. All I am saying is that we should not only try to put the thanks in thanksgiving by saying how much you are thankful for your dog snuggles, but by putting the giving back in thanksgiving and just try to do something that you wouldn't ordinarily do, and give. Now im not saying that you should sell your house and give all of your money to Mr.Shaly the homeless guy down the street, but how about dropping a line to someone who is lonely, like a grandparent. Or how about instead of spending time playing your brand new video game, spend some quality time with your dear old mum. Small things add up.

the penultimatum

honestly not much to say. Today was our penultimate session with Joy. We got the final kinks out of our monologues and they are all honestly spectacular....(in my opinion at least).

I dont know if it is just me being me, but everytime i act, i think that i suck. Not just oh im being melodramatic, but that everthing i act as comes out suckish. This (hopefully) is not the case but whose to say its not. This actually could be just a kick in the ass saying that i really need to get into gear if i actually want to get anywhere in life. As my mom always says "What is going to seperate Alex Katz from Alex Katz from Alex Katz?" I guess you could say that where ever i am, i strive for somewhere better. What ever i do, i know that someone somewhere had done something better then that, and i just need to beat it. Its a never ending cycle that one day i hope to defeat, thus begining my Nirvana.......If you are into that stuff that is.

not much to say

Currently i've been reading the acclaimed novel The Hitchhiker's Guide To The Galaxy . It truly is an enthralling book with a very strange cast of character. From a maniacally depressed robot to a rockstar who decided to be dead for a year for tax reasons, this book never ceases to amuse. But that's not what i want to talk about. What i want to talk about is the reoccuring sub plot, that life, the universe (in its mindboggingly biggedness), and everything, fits together like a jigsaw puzzle, and that everything is pre determined (or post determined depending what time you are in......it gets quite confusing). It got me to wondering, what if this is really true? Is there anything we do to stop it, or will our every action, no matter how random it may be, be already recorded in the confines of history itself? Or perhaps, we may actually be able to change our destiny, thus changing ourselves and everyone around us?
I would honestly like the world to work this way, but it may not . However i wont let the predeterminedness of the universe stop me from being me and caring what happens...or i might....whatever the future tells me to do.......or someting along those lines........

"in my monologue"- first discovered in the ruins of SNLithica.....and believed to be written by the prophet Swift

Today in our workshops we further worked on our monogues (which i can finally spell without spell check YAAAAY)! I found it quite enthralling, if you will, to finally connect with mine. At first it seemed to me that my monologue was a farsical diologue which would be the punchline of a Monty Python skit. While this could possibly be the case, I was challenged to read my monogue while putting the bare minimum amount of "pieces of flare" on it. At first I was hesitant, to say the least, to conform to Joy's sugguestions. However i felt it to be worth a shot. After actually reading the monologue as a regular face to face "conversation" I realized that yeah, it did sound a bit better like that. The more i read the more i liked what i was reaidng and the more passionate I became about it, finally resulting in (what i hope to show next week when i have finished memorizing it) a profoundly done monologue that the writer whould be geninuely proud of.

p.s. ask me about the miley concert.....if you havent already.....ive got damn good stories............

Workshops

ok so im going to just come out and say it. I love this workshop. Joy is really an inspiration to us all. She is always true to her name and this helps us all come out of our shells. I mean just to start out the workshop with full body exersizes which allow us to go all out and express ourselves through nonsencical motions is so effective. Also the inspirational quotes she gives boost our morales so that we may try to make better our monologues. The exersize that she makes us do is also very interesting. To start off we just read our monologues straight off. This familiarizes us with them before the second exersize of reading in between the lines of the monologues. By this i mean that we try to recapture the ideas and emotions of our monologues without having them infront of us. This exersize allowed me (us?) to really strip down our compositions into what they were really about and the true human emotions that go with them. After this we reread our monologues using the various things we learned from reading inbetewwn the lines, thus creating a more realistic steeing and feel to our acting. Altogether i say that Joy is doing an awsome job and i look fowar to working with her more in the future.

Oh and as a side note...some awesome songs im listening to:
Zak and Sara-Ben Folds
Chelsea Dagger- The Fratellis
Human- The Killers
When You Were Young- The Killers
Moving To New York- The Wombats
Let's Dance To Joy Division- The Wombats
The General- Dispatch

t shirts

i figure that t shirt designs arent as easy as people make them out to be. I say this b/c not only do you have to make a neat design that everyone is happy with but it has to also have a deep meaning that people can relate to. On top of that you need a catchy slogan that fits with your neat picture. So instead of "STAC-We Are Cool" with a dragon on the front, it needs to be something like "STAC- We Are More Then We Seem" with like mystic/rustic looking drawings of the various symbols of all of the diciplines of STAC. This being said, for me, actually sitting down to complete this task is a total nusance. I mean yes my previous sugguestion was pretty sweet concidering I thought it up in like 17 seconds, but to me it had no actual astetic value. Oh yeah and i forgot to mention that this shirt needs to be something people would want to wear on a daily basis. Looks like its gonna be back to the drawing board for me......maybe somethng with sparkels....(nahhhhhh)

things i learned in stac

1. Everything is not what it seems means, for example, that everyday colors that you see in the world are not always what they are steryotypically viewed to be like trees. I've learned through many coloring books to always color my trees brown. WRONG! THEY'RE PURPLE, PURPLE I TELL YOU!(strangely this leads to inquisitive stares ). But after that mind blowing day outside I now realize that a "brown" tree has purple, and red, and orange, and green in it. Also that a "green" leaf has yellow and brown in it. This made my world a lot more colorful and totally strange.

2. People like relationships: In any movie, tv show, ect its not the stupid jokes and stuff that people throw in that really make the show interesting, its really the relationships that people watch. Will they, wont they, did they, have they, are they? These are the things that really grasp a person's attention, not the OMIGOSH AN INVISIBLE FLYING TUBA jokes.

3. The Mythic Journey Prevails!: The mythic journey is the main basis of most movies. I think that this is mainly due to the "if it aint broke, dont fix it" mentality that most people have. Not only that, but it works if you change the characters and story line around and keep the basic mythic principles. I bet if you watched 10 movies at least 9 of them would be have those basic mythinc qualities that we have all grown to love.

kontrol

This freakishly phychadlic movie has many meanings to me. One being that in order to repent for something that you have done you need to first defeat your inner demons. This is prevolent in this movie b/c before Boshu(yeah I didnt spell that right, but you understand it) could finally forgive himself for whatever he did, he first needed to prove to himself that he is not a failure. This was done by him defeating the killer. Whether the killer was real or not didn't matter in this instance, because after winning the railing contest against the killer(himself???) he realized that he had finally became the "master of two worlds"(see I was paying attention/read) and was able to ascend up the escalators with his guardian angel into a new life. Another meaning I got from this movie was that self pity is never the way to go and you need to believe in yourself. Whatever Boushu did that made him believe that he needed to be punished, I don't think was that bad(seeing as Boushu was such a good guy). Who knows what would have happened had he not pitied himself and punished himself(yeah, we might not have had a movie) but he would have at least not found himself in a dead end, crappy job. His turning point in this movie was made possible because he finally got some chutzpa and stopped pitying himself and realized that he could do better in his life.