enigram test and the various other funny things

i just want to start with an actual question



I generally don't like to stay at one task for very long. I get restless and want to move onto something else.



so im clicking no as i look at the bottom of the page and see that i have 12 more pages to go and think boy...i wonder whats on facebook......



so i got my results and lo and behold its a tie between a seven and an eight



its funny becasue for a silly electronic test those results were damn right

i read both the seven and eight and hell, they were just about spot on......

i am sort of a crazy excentric quick witted seven but with the loyalty and the extreme shut out ness of a eight (contradictory i know)

core values/ the dreaded artist statement

ok so since my core values/ issues arent able to be scanned...(not that anyone could have figured them out due to my cryptic handwriting and various lines drawn as connectors, i've (kindly) narrowed everything down....and made it semi -coherant...

Core Values:

Acceptance: practially everything i do and try to do is usually for acceptancce.....whether it be my own or for someone else, i have a burning desire to be accepted (and therefore liked)

Connections- Ranging from wifi to actual human connections (relationships) my life seems to revolve around connections. I find that everything i do somehow is connected to something else i do...so i guess the Celestine Prophecy applies here also. Like acceptance i live for relationships (but always seem to get in my own way from actually achieving a succuessful one(see self sabitour under issues). Also i find that wifi(cyber connections) allows me to know more....and as much as i hate to qoute any monologue that doug has ever (or will ever) utter... "the more I know the more I'll be. The less I know the less I'll be." Meaning that the more i am connected the more i gain from being connected.

3?- as we are trying to constantly find out more about ourselves, sadly so am i. I leave the third value blank under the hope that i will find out that one last bit of myself as i continue (really meaning start) to so some soul searching.

Problems-(Gosh where to start...might need a road map for this one)

1.Karma
-self sabitour (bad karma given to myself......or just me doing (or much more likely saying) something stupid)

2. finding yourself
-(acceptance?)

(3?)- (i add the question mark only because im not sure if this goes under this catagory or if i am just having a self help session with my monitor and key board)

I make people hate me before they can hate me.

its like a bomb that i voluntairily cut the red wire to (even though i know it is the green wire to stop it) before it can go off on its own.

i wanna stop there because i realize that venting towards an inanimate object may be fun but it illicits wierd stares from people from the slightly disturbed look upon my face...

(4?) (again question mark because im not sure it fits)

humor
it is the bane of my existance but also the reason that i am still sane
it is the evergoing quest to find humor in any and all situations that is the trouble
it is also my defence mechanism (humor translated into sarcasm) which i often use to keep myself from either getting emotionally connected (bomb theory) or to keep myself from being (pause for the cliche about to come) all that i can be.

ill end this crazed siloquoy with a little bit of humor becasue that is what i do best

Personality type:
A-Love yourself
B-Hate your self

i see myself as an A
or would it be a B and a half seeing as it would need to go up to an A because an A going to a B is proposterous
however i dont think that a B type rubs me so well, so i will have to go with an A minus i guess
But that gives me too much credit because as easily as i can look in a mirror and say "you are the man" i can also say that " kid...you need to loose a bit of weight" so i will have to go with a B+
But again that darn B doesnt give me enough credit but the A minus may just be too generous (becasue lets get this straight a A minus is practically a B+ anyways) But that A- is better then that darn B+....oh wait....how bout i create a C + that way i can be a B type with the "C" but the plus is for the A type in me.....but again that C doesnt have the same ring as an A and ill tell you i think that i deserve an A.....but not really.....i guess.................................
wrap your head around that

Newyears resolutions (cliche i know) ( and if you must burst my bubble do so nicely)

1. Taylor Lautner Abs...for the ladies....
2. Good grades (but that's a given)
3. Job would be nice ( lifeguarding pays well....)
4. be a general better person.... even i dont know what it entails but i guess it sounds protentious enough to be on here
5. Have more fun---im the steryotypical nerd when it comes to going out and having fun....and that really needs to change
6. stop cursing--its gonna get me in trouble one day
7. Dont get in my own way
8. Taylor lautner abs (...........its for the ladies)
9. Stand out
10. make EVERYONE proud
11. take time for myself
12. get done with this list!!!!!!!

and good luck to everyone else..........

so i dont have to clean the stac room...

AVATAR- today i saw the movie Avatar. No, wait...to even call it a movie is doing it injustice...this was an epic adventure. going into the theatre, i thought that it would be another cruddy scifi movie...."yeah so some dude thinks he is an alien...big fricken woop...does it have wookies and ewoks..no!!!" Boy was i wrong. Even just in the begining of the movie the characters reveal themeslves through things that you did not see. They leave you with questions like who is he? why is he there? which is answered as the door pannels open to a breathtaking view of the alien world deamed pandora. I'm not going to spoil the whole movie for you but i will tell some of my favorite parts/things. Thing #1- no "filler" diologue- the dioogue was very poinant- it either answered questioins (and then gave you more) or it explored relationships betewwn characters. There was absolutely no cliche ohhh I love you sooooooooooooooooooo much. Instead their eyes did the talking and honestly as the movie goes on, you cant even tell that the main characters are aliens at all, they are just people learning about eachother. Thing #2- Awesome acting by the main character- this guy was just awesome. You really connected with him from the very start. If i hadnt seen pix of him standing up, you would have whole heartedly believed he was a cripple looking for some hope. Thing #3- The scenery GORGOUS! my favorite part of the scenery becides the epic views and beauty, was the fact that the poinant parts of the scenery were either extremely bland which only made them more interesting or they were lit. Not like a light from the heavens (although it was a sacred tree). It was sort of glowing in a divine way- it was what the tree of knowledge wishes it would look like)---altogether you need to see this film....in 3d none the less and pay attention to every detail of everything because credit is needed where credit is due and believe me this director deserves credit.

facebook groups(the rant---soon to be a feature film!!!...naaazzzz)

Facebook groups...whats up with thaaaaaaattttt? But no, it is not a laughing matter. You may remember back in the "good ol days" of facebooks where yeah, there were groups, but they were somewhat poignant, like pertaining to a economic policy or a political party. They were meant to unite people with the same interests together under one page where they could be unjudged by people of the same beliefs. Unfortunately this is not the case anymore. These groups have become an epidemic that infect all of our newsfeeds slowly eating away at the valuable space, so much that instead of where the extremely urgent message saying "Help!!! I'm trapped in a well" (which was surprising in the first place because you didn't know that wells still existed or why he posted this on facebook instead of contacting, like, the police or something, but I digress) now reads "such and such has joined the facebook group "hey, I'm in a well!!!". They aren't even funny! I don't know how anyone gets joy out of joining the group "I also have a tongue!!!!" They are nonsensical and just plain stupid. Not saying that there aren't any poignant groups still out there, but they have been overshadowed by the large blanket of stupidity. And what makes it even funnier is that people create GROUPS saying how stupid other GROUPS are which people join, thus creaing another annoying GROUP!!!!! HOW DOES THAT HELP AT ALL!!!!!!??!?!?!?!?!?1?!?!?!?1?1?!?1?1/1?1?1!

STEPS TO CURE THE EPIDEMIC: When you click on a group take a second to think- are you joining because you want to discuss the theory of relativity as related to the quantitative theory of matter or are you joining becasue you too have two opposible thumbs and want to reassure the world. If you chose the latter please take an extra moment to think-- does the world really need to know if I have opposible thumbs by me joining this group created by some 30 something year old guy who is probaily still living with his parents at their home, or should I go out and physically show the world through interpretive dance......(just a sugguestion)

SOME ACTUAL GROUP NAMES: Saying the entire alphabet because you cant remember what letter comes next, I'm sorry I don't say hi to you anymore because you don't say hi to me , I Stand In The Shower for An Hour Because I like Hot Water. RA RA RA AH AH AH, ROMA RO MA MA, GAGA OOH LA LA. if all the lyrics i've memorized were facts, i'd be a genius.Waking Up & Seeing You Still Have Time Left To Sleep.Apples taste better when they are sliced. If Girls Have Period Pains, Guys Should Be Kicked In The Balls Once a Month.

SO PLEASE HELP TO STOP THIS EPIDEMIC BEFORE IT SPREADS AND CONSUMES THE WORLD....=)

THE MORE YOU KNOW!!!!

that sweedish romantic horror flick

1.
The backstory to this movie reveals to us that Oscar is a lonley, disturbed kid. Its funny becasue with the minimal diologue, you are still able to determine what kind of person Oscar is.




2. There is litttle to none camera movement in the whole movie. If the camera moves, it moves slowly and shakily, but not much.



3. During grusome scenes or where the whole of the scenery becomes important to understand the scene, the camera zooms waaaaay out, however during a scene with alot of diologue or a scene where minor details become important, the camera seems right infront of the character.



4. A character can be developed by their attitudes, body language, body structure, and dress.

Ex of how the director changed a character physcially --- Oscar's body type- has broader shoulders from working out more twords the end of the film.



5. Sound in this movie is used instead of gore... so instead of seeing a multilated body, you hear fangs going into someone's neck. Sound is also used during "imporant" or key parts of the movie, to emphasize its importance. Sound is never wasted. The worst parts of the movie are the parts you create for yourself.



6. Hakan- He seems to actually care for Eli---although i dont know their relation (is he observing her(him???.....lets stick with "it") as a scientist or is he a relative of Eli's? He appairently didnt care about the consequences of caring for Eli, seeing as he went on a murder spree to feed Eli.


7. i don't exactly know the signifigance of the puzzles but the scenes when we see the puzzles are when Eli and Oscar first meet and when Eli reveals that she/he is a vampire.

8. i believe Plot point 1 to be where Eli and Oscar meet. She/he is the one that convinces oscar to change himself by working out and standing up to the bullies thus changing the course of the movie.

9. Plot point two i think is where Eli reveals to Oscar that he/she is a vampire....the rest of the movie from then on explores their relationship.



10. Yeah, this is indeed a happy ending....Eli and Oscar are together and all seems to be well.....for now atlest.

well as all of you know today was the last day of workshops. All in all it was a good experience i learned some good things and had alot of fun. really all i want to say in this blog is two things. One that i am sorry to all of the people who have left me comments and are angry with me for not responding. My computer is messed up and does not allow me to read/comment on anything....so sorry. The second thing i want to get across is my current playlists

who says- John mayer- SOOOOO GOOOOODDD--- lyrics can be concieved as not shallow but not entirely in the deep end and melody is killer

when we were young- the killers- an oldie but a goodie-its an anthem- with meaningful lyrics- all around good song

drops of jupiter- train- a ballodesque song- killer piano- its like a sung poem

simple song-miley cyrus- its a guilty pleasure......its not deep....its not that good of a song.....its just damn addictive!!!!