core values/ the dreaded artist statement

ok so since my core values/ issues arent able to be scanned...(not that anyone could have figured them out due to my cryptic handwriting and various lines drawn as connectors, i've (kindly) narrowed everything down....and made it semi -coherant...

Core Values:

Acceptance: practially everything i do and try to do is usually for acceptancce.....whether it be my own or for someone else, i have a burning desire to be accepted (and therefore liked)

Connections- Ranging from wifi to actual human connections (relationships) my life seems to revolve around connections. I find that everything i do somehow is connected to something else i do...so i guess the Celestine Prophecy applies here also. Like acceptance i live for relationships (but always seem to get in my own way from actually achieving a succuessful one(see self sabitour under issues). Also i find that wifi(cyber connections) allows me to know more....and as much as i hate to qoute any monologue that doug has ever (or will ever) utter... "the more I know the more I'll be. The less I know the less I'll be." Meaning that the more i am connected the more i gain from being connected.

3?- as we are trying to constantly find out more about ourselves, sadly so am i. I leave the third value blank under the hope that i will find out that one last bit of myself as i continue (really meaning start) to so some soul searching.

Problems-(Gosh where to start...might need a road map for this one)

1.Karma
-self sabitour (bad karma given to myself......or just me doing (or much more likely saying) something stupid)

2. finding yourself
-(acceptance?)

(3?)- (i add the question mark only because im not sure if this goes under this catagory or if i am just having a self help session with my monitor and key board)

I make people hate me before they can hate me.

its like a bomb that i voluntairily cut the red wire to (even though i know it is the green wire to stop it) before it can go off on its own.

i wanna stop there because i realize that venting towards an inanimate object may be fun but it illicits wierd stares from people from the slightly disturbed look upon my face...

(4?) (again question mark because im not sure it fits)

humor
it is the bane of my existance but also the reason that i am still sane
it is the evergoing quest to find humor in any and all situations that is the trouble
it is also my defence mechanism (humor translated into sarcasm) which i often use to keep myself from either getting emotionally connected (bomb theory) or to keep myself from being (pause for the cliche about to come) all that i can be.

ill end this crazed siloquoy with a little bit of humor becasue that is what i do best

Personality type:
A-Love yourself
B-Hate your self

i see myself as an A
or would it be a B and a half seeing as it would need to go up to an A because an A going to a B is proposterous
however i dont think that a B type rubs me so well, so i will have to go with an A minus i guess
But that gives me too much credit because as easily as i can look in a mirror and say "you are the man" i can also say that " kid...you need to loose a bit of weight" so i will have to go with a B+
But again that darn B doesnt give me enough credit but the A minus may just be too generous (becasue lets get this straight a A minus is practically a B+ anyways) But that A- is better then that darn B+....oh wait....how bout i create a C + that way i can be a B type with the "C" but the plus is for the A type in me.....but again that C doesnt have the same ring as an A and ill tell you i think that i deserve an A.....but not really.....i guess.................................
wrap your head around that